Allison Holker is giving her first interview since the tragic death of her husband, Stephen ‘tWitch’ Boss, late last year. She died by suicide at the age of 40 in late December.
The couple had been married for nine years and shared three children: daughters Weslie, 14, and Zaia, 3, and son Maddox, 7.
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Of his tragic passing, Allison said People In a new interview, “No one had any idea that it was under control. He didn’t want people to know. He just wanted to be the Superman and protector of everyone. It has been very hard because I cannot understand what was happening at that moment. [he died].”
“Stephen brought so much joy to this world and he deserves to be remembered for the beautiful man that he was,” he continued.
The death of her husband affected her physically. “You are trying to help yourself and help your children, friends and family, and it took its toll on you. Literally getting up in the morning was getting harder and harder.” She started taking cold dips at night, which helped ease her tension. “Now it is part of my daily practice. Spiritually and mentally, it has also helped a lot.”
Of her children together, Allison said, “I’m trying to teach them, and myself, that if you’re angry or sad, it doesn’t mean you’re a bad person. We’re dealing together, and that requires trust and being really vulnerable.”
He also recalled a difficult day recently, when he went out at night to look at the stars. “The stars are very important to me because that’s where we think it is. She knew that she wanted him to find peace. He was alone under the stars and I told him: ‘I forgive you and I hope you are with us.’ Talking to him and expressing all those emotions of forgiveness and sadness, but also love and joy, was very healing.”
She also explained that she still hasn’t danced since her death.
“I haven’t danced yet. It will be a big step for me, but I know I will make it. He is leading me down this path,” she shared.
In Stephen’s honor, he started the Move with Kindness foundation. The mission statement reads as follows: The Move with Kindness Foundation aims to continue the legacy of Stephen tWitch Boss by spreading mental health love and awareness.
It has been a struggle for Allison to keep going with purpose. She reached out to a friend, Andy Grammer, for advice.
She shared: “Then I spoke to my friend, Andy Grammer, and expressed to him, ‘How am I going to continue living what I know is my purpose, love and joy, and has always been my family’s purpose?’ “, she remembers. “He said, ‘Allison, it’s still your purpose. It just looks a little different now, and it’s a little more full of depth. I’ll never forget that conversation because I feel like I knew it inside of me, but hearing from a friend that I still have that purpose helps me keep going, too.”
Our continued thoughts are with Allison, her children, and all of Stephen’s friends, family, and loved ones. RIP.
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